Not my will....

First post - I'm excited =)

I was digesting a lot of Isaiah 40-something this afternoon and noticed a theme. Over and over God is reminding the reader of who He is, of what He has done. As I allowed myself to soak in His words, I became smaller and smaller as more of my sins became evident. Pride, dissatisfaction, envy, self-righteousness and self-reliance, I could keep going for quite awhile. Pretty soon into the passages I realized my proper place is on my knees before the LORD. Every morning, do I meet the LORD like this? How many verses are there that speak of how God dwells in a high and holy place, and also with him who is of a contrite and lowly spirit? How can He dwell in such a high and lofty dwelling, and also with someone who is lowly? Because there is room for him there. A humble person has made complete room for him, setting aside all that he or she has for a greater call. I wrote this in my margins as I became aware of my insignificance apart from Christ: "It is not about me!" It really has nothing to do with me or what I can bring to the LORD God of the universe. I have nothing of worth I can give him. This song just came to mind, which is one I love to play and sing through.

"So what could I bring
To honor your Majesty?
What song could I sing
That would move the heart of royalty,

When all that I have
Is all that you've given me?

So Lord, let me sing for you
This song with humility.

To my audience of One
You are Father, and you are Son
As your Spirit flows free
Let it find within me
A heart that beats to praise you
And now just to know you more
Has become my great reward
To see your kingdom come
And your will be done
I only desire to be yours, LORD."

Here's my challenge for myself this week: I want to wake up every morning and fall to my knees immediately before the LORD my Creator, remembering who I am and who He is. I want to cast down every part of me that strives to "earn" or "perform" apart from Him. I want to gladly humble myself and live before the cross of Christ with my gaze firmly fixed up. Oh God, in my strength alone I know this is not possible. But I know in Christ, I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. Please grant me repentance. How I love You, O LORD my strength! My heart sings for joy to the Living God!